Hannah Haein

Hannah is a graphic designer living in Koreatown. She was born in Washington, raised in Colorado, and moved to Los Angeles when she was in the eighth grade. Currently, she is a senior studying computer information systems at Cal State LA and hopes to get into UX design. She is also working to launch her art business, selling stickers, calendars, prints, and more! Another project she is currently working on is making a graphic novel. Hannah has been a graphic design intern at KYCC since September 2019. Her Instagram is @hancandrawtoo.

Where is your hometown?

My hometown is Olympia, Washington. I was born there, but [my family] moved a lot. First to Walla Walla, Washington — that’s where my brother was born. And then we moved to Randle, Washington, in the countryside. And then we moved to Sterling, Colorado, and then to Denver, and within Denver, we moved around Centennial and Aurora. After Colorado, we came to L.A. and have been living here for about 10 years now. I grew up in a lot of different places.

We moved to L.A. because my dad had a job here at World Vision, a humanitarian nonprofit for children, where they sponsor children and look after them. He was a pastor and did a lot of different jobs, but that’s the one he found here in L.A. He moved here by himself first for a year before we all came. We went straight to K-Town, and we’ve been in the same apartment for 10 years.

Do you live or work in Koreatown?

I’m a graphic design intern at KYCC. I didn’t get into graphic design right away. I didn’t know what to do in my first year of college. My parents always pushed for some kind of medical background because my dad was an acupuncturist. My dad and brother are really smart, but I guess I skipped a generation or something [laughs]. I tried nursing, hated it, and switched my major to computer information systems. I’m more of a technology person anyway, so I got into that. Computer information systems is a fusion of business and computer coding.

I also like doing art. A lot of my friends are into art. I met this one unni (언니 — older female in Korean), a graphic designer, and she introduced me to everything. One day, I committed, got myself an iPad, and started doodling. I didn’t think much of it. I didn’t change my major to graphic design or art. I thought it was smarter to do something I could fall back on at school and then build my resume and portfolio in graphic design outside of school, through direct experience.

Art school is expensive. I think just working and getting tips from experts outside of school is more worth it. So I decided not to do art in school. I did a lot of freelancing. I started with friends and family, and they connected me with different people. They saw my profile on Instagram, contacted me, and asked me to do commissions for them. That’s how I started; I learned [how to use] Adobe by myself, and then I started working for KYCC.

Every October, KYCC has a costume contest, and you can get movie tickets or something if you win. Moon (Moon Park from KYCC HR) asked me to make her costume, which is now taped around the office. I made this little costume about KYCC, people talked, and Katherine saw my resume and asked me to come in. That’s how I got the internship. I wasn’t actively looking for an internship; it just happened. I’m really grateful for that.  

Now I’m doing a sticker business. I’ve always wanted to make stickers. I was always curious about how to make them. One day, I thought I needed a new hobby. I also started it because my parents were both in the hospital and my grandma had just passed away, so I craved a new hobby, and it’s just fun. It took a long time to launch because of what was going on at home. But it gets my mind off of reality because my reality is too raw, way too real for me. I just needed something to help me have a workflow, and this gave me that.

The theme is just cute! It’s supposed to be happy and lighthearted. Depending on the season or my mood, the theme will change. A lot of it’s supposed to be for bullet journaling because I love it and a lot of people are into it, especially during quarantine, so why not make stickers for them? I’m thinking of putting vinyl stickers for people to put on their water bottles and laptops, but I’m still figuring things out. Literally, I have 200 more orders I have to do. It’s pretty crazy right now. People are like, ‘Please put up the Google form again so we can order.’

What are your thoughts on Koreatown? 

[Koreatown] is very interesting. I have lived here for 10 years now, and I grew up in a lot of different places, but I can confidently say that I really grew up in K-Town. This is where I have the most memories. I moved around a lot and went to three different middle schools, so my [early] childhood was all over the place. I appreciate having spent my childhood [in K-Town]. It’s so fun here. This is my home. I know where everything is, where the hot spots are, my friends and I go to the same places a million times in high school, and I take the bus everywhere, even though it’s disgusting.

 It’s so interesting to me because in K-Town, you can either come out of it very OK, but you can also come out of it sort of broken. Thankfully, I think I’ve been safe all these years, and I grew up pretty well. 

K-Town has changed so much. Everything seems gentrified. Although I love K-Town, there are things that kind of disappoint me. Like when a homeless shelter was being built around here, so many Korean people hated the idea, and that really disappointed me. It’s just so expensive here, and they’re expecting people to pay so much money that they don’t have. People like me — I’ve been living here for a long time, my rent is $1420, and now I have to be evicted because they’re demolishing my apartment to gentrify it. Now I have to go from [paying] $1420 to like $2200. And this isn’t just happening to me, but also to the local people who may be more disadvantaged than I am. It’s a scary time. I have a love-hate relationship with K-Town.

Where is your favorite place in Koreatown?

I love love love OB Bear. It’s a two-minute walk from my house. It’s one of my favorite places to get a drink or eat chicken. Another place I love is my church [Mijoo Peace Church]. My church has a gated parking lot, and [my friends and I] don’t just go on Fridays and Sundays, but we go when we have nowhere else to go.

My friend and I bought some beer and food, then went to the church parking lot to eat outside. I think it’s kind of like a safe haven for me. It’s one of our go-to places. I’ve been at my church for 10 years, ever since I moved here. People at my church watched me grow up. When I first met them, I was 14. Now I’m 22 — they basically raised me.

What has given you comfort and hope during this time?

I’m doing the sticker business, so having a workflow is comforting because it’s something to occupy my mind. My mind is clouded by dark thoughts right now, and it’s a hard season, so I need something to keep me going and keep me moving. I also have two dogs at home. Their names are Ollie and Cookie, and I don’t know what I would’ve done without them. 

The third thing is community. I have no family in L.A. right now to support me because they’re all in New York, so they can only comfort us through the phone. What’s keeping [me and my brother] going is our community and our support system here in L.A., like our church, where people tell us they love us and pray for us. They gave us a meal train, and we keep saying, “Stop giving us food.” But from my parents’ church and our church, it’s just constant love and support. Random people have been contacting us and helping us out on GoFundMe, and that’s really changed our lives. It gives us a sense of love and community even though we’re literally all in different places. Although everybody was apart, people showed our family that they still care. 

I go to a volunteer group called RenewLA. They have been really gracious. They know so many resources, and they gave me an advisory board where I could say crazy things and help me go through things in good ways. KYCC has also done that. KYCC’s motto is to serve the whole family, and this time, it was my family. It was just a blessing to run into the opportunity to become their intern.

Katherine has been so gracious as well. She directed us to different departments at KYCC, and so many people there, whom I’d met only once or twice, wanted to help out. It’s really encouraging to see so many people wanting to step up and offer their services to us. That’s what keeps us going.

What is the toughest part of your days right now? The best?

The worst part is in the morning, right when I wake up. That’s literally the worst part of my day. I don’t want to sound depressed, but when I wake up, I open my eyes, stare up at the ceiling, and ask God, “Is this literally my life?” I have to fill myself in on what’s been happening in my life. I have to constantly remind myself, It has to be this and this and this today because this happened in your life and you’re going through it. This morning was really hard for me because it’s just lonely at home. My mom is in the hospital, where I can’t go see her right now, and it’s just a waiting game because if the doctor says no to her lung transplant, we don’t know what the next step is. It’s sickening and makes me want to barf.

Just the thought that my grandma and dad passed away is really sad. This morning, I cried because it feels awful to start a day when so much has been going on. My dad was an [acupuncturist], and this weekend we had to pack up his things and try to sell them. That was really heartbreaking for me. I used to go to work with him a lot. A lot has been happening. I used to be level-headed and channel my feelings and cope with them, but right now, it’s hard for me to cope. I’ll put a smile on my face, but it’s not really like that in my heart. And if someone yells at me, I get very angry because I can’t take it, and I think, Why did you yell at me at this time? So yeah, a lot of emotions, especially in the morning.

The best part of my day — an OK part of my day — is when I’m doing work, I guess, when I’m reading or drawing or going out for a beer. We were all in quarantine. Everything was closed, and we couldn’t go out at all. At first, I was critical of people who went out, but now I feel like I have to go out or else I’m going to faint. The days I go out make up the nice part of my day. It’s not the best part, but it’s tolerable.